FEAR

She said, ‘Don’t fear the monster, fear what created it.”

Focus on the thoughts within and question.

  • Is the motivation obscured?
  • Does the pain & suffering carry meaning?
  • Am I feeling shame, betrayal, abandonment, hate and if so, what happens if I meditate on it? 

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I hear a song of love that includes a promise from my community and it is:

  • We will not abandon or forget you
  • We will not betray or manipulate you
  • We will not exile and exclude you
  • We will not punish you
  • because
  • We are interconnected
  • We are in constant motion
  • We are multidimensional and mysterious
  • We are in a dimension of eternal time

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When I felt abandonment and betrayal I went into hiding, a self imposed exile. Alone, I made the pain of abandonment and betrayal real by hurting my body and keeping my weakness secret. Some strangers can seen what is hidden, they know a monster is inside me, and still they show kindness. They share scars of past wounds and stories of healing. So, with them I can imagine new ways of life and find my true self. I learned to trust my true self and the people who share the intentions:

  • We will not abandon or forget you
  • We will not betray or manipulate you
  • We will not exile and exclude you
  • We will not punish you
  • because
  • We are interconnected
  • We are in constant motion
  • We are multidimensional and mysterious
  • We are in a dimension of eternal time

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